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Post by Antosha Cobb on Dec 24, 2009 5:11:42 GMT
Price to pay
The door was shut tightly behind him, not caring whither it was locked or unlocked. His silver escape nestled safely in his palm, waiting for the moment of it's purpose. He was ready, he was willing, he was going to end it all.
Eyes that seen behind the gate of Hell
Screaming, his spirit guide was left far behind. He cries no longer plagued him. Couldn't they just let him die in peace? In peace to go back to the Devil. Fear had left him, left him long ago. Now all he had was his silver escape and the promises of the Devil. Promises to tempting to let go.
Killing the demon
He leaned against the door, letting it support all his weight while he bared his arm. The demons were watching him eageringly, wanting him to join their side. "That's it, join us." they hissed, they bright red eyes glowing. But it was all in his head, just as it always was. It was time to kill them, squelch them from existence.
Bite the knife
He sighed, looking at the knife in his hand, looking at his wrist. Without a second thought he brought it down, letting the cold bite deep to his bone. It might have gone farther if he hadn't brought it out, but for some reason he did. Letting the knife fall to the ground, surrounded by tiny droplets of blood. Soon they formed a puddle of crimson, bring Antosha to the ground. It was peaceful here, making him tired quickly. He was ready to die, not afraid of a thing.
End it all
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Post by Brynn Ciel Devereux on Dec 24, 2009 7:26:54 GMT
The day had been moving slowly. However it was also strange he hadn't seen Anto anywhere all day. In fact he began to wonder where he was. Brynn began to look everywhere for him. For some reason it hadn't occurred to look in the dorms. However he walked up to their room opening the door.
Luna was sleeping soundly in her bed. He walked downstairs to the bathroom hearing a small thud from behind the door. He walked up slowly curiosity consuming him. He knocked on the door "A...Anto?" He called out quietly noticing the door was unlocked. However a weight was pushed against it. After pushing it open a crack he saw Anto. "Anto I was looking..." Brynn looked down noticing a knife and then hints of red. "Anto..." He whispered looking up at him with a strange fear in his eyes.
"No...Anto." He pushed harder against the door able to pry his way in, it was worse than what he had thought. "Anto why would you..." He kneeled grabbing his arm wondering how much medical magic he knew. He closed his eyes gently trying to heal his arm imaging the blood clotting, but he also began feeling energy drain from him. He was distracted by the sharp scent of blood. Brynn was feeling nauseous as the skin on Anto's hand began closing, however Brynn pulled away to tired to keep going. "Ungh..." He leaned again the sink closing his eyes hoping he had healed most of the cut.
"Don't do that..." He said his voice soft he felt something moist at the corners of his eyes as he tried to lift an arm to wipe the tear. No he wasn't going to let Ant see him cry. However he was too weak to keep his arms up for long. He was barely able to wipe away the tears escaping his eyes so instead he turned his head away from Anto.
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Post by Antosha Cobb on Dec 25, 2009 0:17:23 GMT
"Aw fuck." he muttered, looking at the floor of the bathroom. Antosha blinked, wondering why he was still alive, he glanced around and spotted Brynn. The boy looked positively sickened, and slightly scared. Why would he be scared of Antosha's dying? If it was fine by him it should be fine with everyone else. Besides, everyone died eventually.
He blinked, trying to sit up without passing out. Funny, who would have thought suicide takes practice? The crimson red stained his shirt, which was thankfully black so it wouldn't show up as bad. Note to self, never wear white. Another thought hit him, how the heck was he thinking so clearly. Oh well, it wasn't as important as Brynn right now. "Hey, why are you crying?" he asked softly, trying to stand up. He failed, then tried again. Sticking the landing like ol' what's-her-name.
He walked up to Brynn, gently touching his shoulder. "You okay?" Antosha was quiet and caring. Yet he was pretending he hadn't just tried to kill himself, and hadn't just failed. Now that he thought about it, why couldn't he have stayed alive? There really was no reason to die. Note to self, next time don't slit wrists. Use a gun.
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Post by Brynn Ciel Devereux on Dec 27, 2009 3:40:02 GMT
Brynn began to stop crying slowly forcing himself to suck the tears back in. After mustering the strength to wipe them he looked at Anto in bewilderment. "Why am I crying?" Brynn stared at him shock in his eyes. "I'm crying because I could have lost you." He said. "I'm crying because you tried to end your life." He looked at him.
"It's not ok Anto why would you do that? Do that to yourself? Do that to your friends...Do that to me?" He said more quietly touching Anto's cheek softly. "I don't want to ever lose you." He suppressed more tears. Brynn glanced at Anto's wrist a thin layer of skin had formed from his healing but it was very red still tender. "I'll wrap that..." He said quietly closing his eyes.
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Post by Antosha Cobb on Dec 27, 2009 5:27:51 GMT
Antosha paused, talking Brynn's words. Though he was hurt, Brynn was worse. The tears were threatening to spill out of the boy's eyes. He looked away, trying to focus on the easiest thing to answer first. "No need to bandage it, Mayu will stitch me up, she's used to it." he bit his tongue, mentally hitting himself for the last bit. "Why would I do that?" he asked, not wanting an answer. "I did it because I wanted all of this to end. I hate myself for putting you in a position you didn't want to be in. If I hadn't told you I loved you, then none of this shit would be happening." his voice was bitter, keeping back words he couldn't stand to say.
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Post by Brynn Ciel Devereux on Dec 27, 2009 5:36:32 GMT
Brynn shook his head taking in a shaky breath. "You're not putting me in any kind of position, if you killed yourself Anto it would hurt me so much more." He said closing his eyes looking down. "I wouldn't be able to survive. It would be so hard to lose someone...someone I...I..." Brynn almost immediately stopped crying. He what? Someone he what? He took a breath looking up at Anto like he'd just discovered something. "I...love." He said with no hesitation. The word seemed to slip right out like nothing and for once he knew he completely meant what he said. "Anto I love you." Brynn looked up at him.
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Post by Antosha Cobb on Dec 27, 2009 5:46:24 GMT
The words slapped him in the face, finally waking him up from delusion. How could Brynn have said that? Hadn't it always been hard for him? Antosha watched him with glassy eyes, trying to focus on the one thing he had left, the only thing that was safe. But safe from what? Him? His mind was barely functioning now, almost refusing to work. Words took ages. "You... I... You shouldn't, I'm worthless." he lied, gritting his teeth till he felt like he'd lost them all. Now it was Antosha's turn to cry.
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Post by Brynn Ciel Devereux on Dec 27, 2009 5:52:09 GMT
"No...no." Brynn wrapped his arms around Anto well it was a bit awkward since Anto was larger than him. However Brynn was able to hug his waist. "You're not worthless and I love you." He said wanting to say those words as much as he could in case he somehow couldn't say them again. "I love you Anto." He said softly. "Don't ever do this to yourself..." Brynn looked at him. "For me." He kissed Anto's lips gently wiping the tears that were falling trying to stay strong for Anto's sake.
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Post by Antosha Cobb on Dec 27, 2009 6:03:36 GMT
Antosha pulled him closer, wrapping his arms tightly around Brynn. "I.. I love you too." he muttered, hoping it was too low for Byrnn to hear. He kissed Brynn slowly, trying to make it last forever. The burn started in his lungs before too long, forcing him to move away. Trying to breath. Stupid lungs, they shouldn't exist and just let them never ever need to breathe.
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Post by Brynn Ciel Devereux on Dec 27, 2009 22:32:44 GMT
Brynn felt Anto's warm kiss as both pulled away for air. He also felt the still warm blood on Anto's shirt. "Don't ever do this again..." He said hugging Anto tightly. "Don't hurt me like that..." Brynn took in a breath. It was silent for awhile. "Maybe we should clean up...I don't want someone thinking a murder happened in here." He looked at the red floors and their dirtied clothes.
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Post by Antosha Cobb on Dec 28, 2009 2:01:19 GMT
Antosha sighed, taking off his shirt quickly. "Hand me yours, it's got blood on it. Sorry." he muttered, draping his own shirt over his arm before searching for the bleach. He found it hidden away under the sink, just where he expected. Without much thought, maybe from doing this so much, he poured the contents on the floor, throwing a couple of sponges over it. Quickly and quietly he cleaned it up, adding just a touch of antiseptic for the smell.
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Post by Brynn Ciel Devereux on Dec 29, 2009 6:08:57 GMT
Brynn watched him strip his shirt asking for Brynn's, He slowly took it off handing it to Anto hugging his stomach. Regardless of the fact he loved Anto he was still uncomfortable with his body. He watched within second the mess clean up. "Wow..." He looked at the clean floor. "Uhm can I have my shirt?" He muttered softly under his breath a light blush falling on his cheeks. He was beginning to get cold.
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Post by Antosha Cobb on Dec 29, 2009 6:14:13 GMT
Antosha shook out the shirts, watching the blood drain down the sinks. He was silent, handing the shirt back to Brynn before slipping his own back on. There wasn't anything more to say, he just let it fall into an awkward silence. Not caring at the moment. Which was rare fore him, but Antosha couldn't help it. Brynn had walked in on him trying to die, how was he to respond to that?
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Post by Brynn Ciel Devereux on Dec 29, 2009 6:27:04 GMT
Brynn grabbed his shirt slipping it back one rather quickly as the still damp cloth only furthered his coldness. Brynn looked sideways. What was there to say? Things felt awkward even after Brynn figured out he loved Anto. However this was probably the worst situation to realize it in. Brynn coughed quietly looking up at him. He stared at Anto for a while a strange silence between them. "Maybe...we should leave the bathrooms." He said mentally punching himself for the stupid words. Brynn was supposed to say something emotional and deep at this point yet nothing came to him.
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Post by Antosha Cobb on Dec 29, 2009 6:36:54 GMT
Antosha smiled, slipping his arm over Brynn's shoulder in an attempt to warm him up. "Sure, wanna go back to the dorms or what?" he asked casually, opening the door for Brynn to leave. He didn't want to deal with all this now, leave it for another day. Wait for the shit to hit the fan, as his friend would always say. Which friend..?
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