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Post by Antosha Cobb on Dec 19, 2009 4:38:05 GMT
"Go to her, now." it was all he could say. His eyes were shut, lost in the glimpses of his hopes, and fears. The tears fell silently from his face, he couldn't do this. Not here, not now. "Diane, she needs you. Go to her." he dared to open an eye, looking at her seriously. Not that he'd admit it but the mood swings were fluxing back to what they had been, bringing his senses to an all time high.
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Post by Diane McLain on Dec 19, 2009 4:42:43 GMT
She looked at him, battling between her concern for him and the rush to go help her girlfriend. She looked down, holding her hands. If she had remembered anything which Antosha had done, she would have been running from him at this point, and even now she only stayed because she thought a feeling she didn't understand. She stood slowly, squeezing his shoulders as she walked past him, but saying nothing as she walked outside, seeing her.
"OK..." she said, walking up to her, feeling numb, "What's wrong?"
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Post by probie on Dec 19, 2009 4:46:52 GMT
"Did you say something?" Abigail mumbled, pulling out one of earphone, from which music was playing at ear bleeding frequencies. The man from the earphone was saying something about dying from a broken heart. Abigail just stared blankly at her iPod, toying with the charm that hung from the side.
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Post by Diane McLain on Dec 19, 2009 4:51:35 GMT
"Yeah," she said, folding her arms across her chest. Her voice wasn't cold, but it had no emotion to it. It wasn't happy, or angry or upset, just... blank. "I asked what's wrong?"
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Post by probie on Dec 19, 2009 4:53:13 GMT
"Nothing." she said plainly, debating whether she should or shouldnt put her earphone back in.
"Whatever gave you that idea? Im fine. You sure you dont have someone a hell of a lot more important to worry about? Your friends still in there.." she glanced at her phone, then back at her iPod.
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Post by Diane McLain on Dec 19, 2009 4:55:52 GMT
She unfolded her hands, putting on of them on her hip, "I don't know, maybe because you said you wouldn't call me back? Maybe because I seem to suddenly have 'bitch' slapped across my forehead?" she asked, frowning. It seemed that in this one night these two were having more fights then most divorced couples ever had.
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Post by probie on Dec 19, 2009 5:01:07 GMT
"Well I dont know if you realized it, but I couldnt hear my phone ring even if I wanted to. And it would be a little hard to bitch slap someone when youre hands are numb as hell." she pointed out, standing up and putting her hands on her cheeks.
"I dont know about you, but Im tired of this shit. If youre going to leave me, then do it. Dont stand around to make sure it stings. Because you know what? I never wanted to hurt you. Im a bitch, sure. But I wouldnt hurt you. Not intentionally." She pulled a note out of her clutch and pressed it to Diane's chest.
"Being publicly humiliated is enough for one person to realize when theyre not wanted."
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Post by Diane McLain on Dec 19, 2009 5:10:04 GMT
"What?" she said, somewhat in between a scream and a whisper. "How- where in Gods name did you get the idea that I didn't like you? When-when I was distracted by life changing events and didn't quite have the energy to pull you back to me after you ran for the second time." she snapped. "Look, all I wanted was a fling. I'm seventeen, I'm finding myself, its a bit of fun, but if you're going to be so clingy and paranoid about every action I do one the first hour of our relationship, then I can't take it," she said, putting her hands up.
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Post by probie on Dec 19, 2009 5:16:24 GMT
"Oh! Forgive me for being paranoid when I nearly had my scalp ripped out! Forgive me for being paranoid after I was tied to a bed at 15 and raped over and over and OVER again! And just not by Bryce! Oh no! By him and his 4 friends! And did I mention they beat me with baseball bats and decided that would be suitable to rape me with too? Forgive me for being paranoid after I was found by a house maid, all bloody and battered only to find I was pregnant a few short days after that! God forbid, someone be paranoid after theyve given birth to a dead baby! He didnt even live because Bryce had to beat him too! And he wasnt even born!" She cried, hugging herself.
"Tell me, whatd that baby ever do to him?"
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Post by Diane McLain on Dec 19, 2009 5:23:26 GMT
She frowned and shook her head. "OK, I get it, it's horrific." she said, her eyes showing more than her voice of just how horrified that she was. "But you know what? You're not the only one that has problems. Just because yours outshine most peoples doesn't mean you can parade them around as an excuse to beg for attention whenever you want it!" she screamed, hardly believing that she was saying that. "I am sorry for what happened, really, I am. But I'm not going to get dragged down because of it. And I'm not going to stand here and be told that I need to pity you, to feel sorry and want to hold you. I do, but your attitude - like this is an excuse to get whatever you want?" she shook her head slowly.
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Post by probie on Dec 19, 2009 5:29:45 GMT
"No. Its not an excuse. But its a part of me! And a part of why Im so bitter! Its not going to go away. And for once, I could forget about that and move on. Until he ruined my night. But I guess you could say I ruined my own night. I came here to have fun too. But you know what I did? I got all depressed because he wouldnt leave me alone and I took it out on yall. And if I could take it back, I would. But I cant. All I can do is promise to make it up to you, you willing. Because Im not going to hurt you like they hurt me. I want to make you happy. And hell, Im trying. And If youd open that there piece of paper, youd find out." she said, realizing that she didnt do a very good job of wrapping up the present, and instead put it in a note, hoping it wouldnt fall out.
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Post by Diane McLain on Dec 19, 2009 5:36:41 GMT
She shook her head, feeling herself softening up. She hugged her body. "I-I'm sorry," she said, looking down. "When.. when something screams at me I just say it. I'm honest, and sometimes it hurts people, and sometimes it makes them stronger. I-I think you're spoiled, spoiled by the attention this has rightly given you" she said, biting her lip. Why couldn't she just keep her mouth shut? "But I think you're willing to try and stop that." she said, looking down at the note in her hands. "Please, if you don't want to hurt me, just don't... expect. Ask, beg, plead, I don't care, but don't expect that I'm going to bend over backwards for something, even if it is horrific." she said with a sigh, and passed the paper back. "I just want a chance to go home, soak this up, let us both cut our losses," she told her.
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Post by probie on Dec 19, 2009 5:40:04 GMT
Abigail shook her head and opened the note herself, pulling out a necklace.
"It reminded me of you.. And so I had to get it.." she said, putting it around Dianes neck and then backing up to see how it looked.
"I thought youd like it.." she mumbled, stooping down to gather her things. "But I guess its kind of pointless now.."
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Post by Diane McLain on Dec 19, 2009 5:46:05 GMT
She looked down, trying so hard to smile. "Y-you're a good person," she told her, sounding more deeply sincere then she had the entire night. "A good person with a lot of bad things that have happened to you. Bad things happen. Some of us break down... some of us smile it off," she said, giving her own smile as if to emphasize it, then looking up to her eyes, "I've had a really bad... couple of weeks, and its all just been-" she choked, looking down. "I'm sorry, I took it out on you and I shouldn't have." she apologised. "You are the only thing that's made sense to me this year. I thought it was perfect and then..." she looked down, "You hurt my friends, broke bonds that had only just repaired... But you weren't to know."
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Post by probie on Dec 19, 2009 5:47:59 GMT
"I seem to hurt everyone around me. Some more than others. But still.." she mumbled biting her lip.
"You deserve better. And I hope you find it." she leaned in and kissed her cheek, tears welling up in her eyes.
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