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Post by Brynn Ciel Devereux on Dec 22, 2009 3:36:15 GMT
His arms felt right where they were. Brynn sniffed wiping some more of the water from his eyes hoping to god that Anto wasn't looking at him. Brynn couldn't speak. He nodded gently his hands wet. He took a shaky breath trying to calm him self. But it was like a waterfall an endless river of delayed tears. Delayed for he didn't know how long.
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Post by Antosha Cobb on Dec 22, 2009 3:44:31 GMT
Antosha pretended to be ignorant of the fact Brynn was crying, pretending to be ignorant of the fact he shouldn't be saying this. "I know I shouldn't, because it's not the same for you. But..." he paused, taking in a shallow breath to break his nerves. "I love you." the words were simpler once they left his mouth, but they just hung there. "I'm sorry that about everything, I wish I didn't love you. Really, so things would be easier on you. But I can't take it back, and I can't make it go away." he cringed inside, wanting to hide under a rock until the storm went away.
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Post by Brynn Ciel Devereux on Dec 22, 2009 3:54:35 GMT
Brynn listened closely to his words not quite expecting them. They shocked him even though they shouldn't have. He stopped crying. He dried his eyes still not looking up rather wrapped his arms around Anto more for support since he was tired now, but also because he just wanted warmth, for someone to be there. "Anto...don't be sorry." He said shakily burying his face in his shoulder still not wanting Ant to see his probably red and swollen eyes. "Don't be sorry, because I know I will, I just don't know when, and I know it hurts." He said quietly. "But I don't want it to hurt you or me."
He couldn't honestly say he loved him back. Instead he just hung there in his arms. Until finally when he could feel the heat leave his eyes he stood on his tip toes giving him a small kiss before leaning back down. "Maybe, we can just put everything behind us..." He said "We can start fresh, and instead working on building something." He hoped Anto would be ok with that. "Because this cycle of hurt just isn't going to work." He said feeling his eyes ready to burst again. This time around he could repress it. "Please..."
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Post by Antosha Cobb on Dec 22, 2009 11:15:57 GMT
He took a moment, thinking over the words carefully. "What would starting fresh entail?" he asked, keeping his voice calm and even. Brynn was right, nothing would come of this continuing. Running would get them no where but to more hurt, not to mention jealousy. Mostly on Antosha's part but that wasn't relevant at the moment. If this starting fresh would help them out, then he would be all for it. Unless it meant pretending not to know each other, but that would just be stupid.
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Post by Brynn Ciel Devereux on Dec 22, 2009 23:23:11 GMT
Brynn thought for a second. What did that entail? Well getting rid of the things that was causing hurt. Which ultimately was Brynn being indecisive. He thought for a second realizing how much Anto held back all the time. "I don't want you to restrain yourself." He said looking up at him. "Because that's what’s hurting you." He said smiling gently. "And trust me I'm sure that I can take the force of all your love." Brynn smiled a bit brighter. "If anything I'd want it." He looked up at him. "Uhm...maybe officially being declared as a couple would help?" He asked himself. "I don't see how..." Brynn was thinking out loud. "I think we should just let go of out troubles and just work on building a relationship. Right?" He said asking Anto. "Anything else you can think of?" Brynn looked at him curiously. What more was there to say?
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Post by Antosha Cobb on Dec 23, 2009 1:16:35 GMT
Asking him not to hold back? Antosha snorted at how ridiculous that would be. It was like asking a blind man to explain the colors in a sunset, a deaf person to tell the emotion in a whale's song, or a mute to sing a lullaby. Impossible, it was just impossible. But he still smiled, putting on a show that he could do this. Brynn's words registered, one after another so that it would be easier to digest. "Nope, I haven't got anything more to say." he smiled shaking his head. It was too much like a dream, way too close to every dream he'd ever had. Now he would just sit back and wait for the fairy godmother to appear.
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Post by Brynn Ciel Devereux on Dec 23, 2009 2:43:54 GMT
Brynn smiled as Anto seemed to agree with everything he said. He hoped that this would shine some new light on the situation. "How should we seal it?" Brynn said feeling Luna pawing at his feet. He just smiled looking up at Anto not feeling so tired anymore. In fact this was probably the best he had felt in a very long time.
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Post by Antosha Cobb on Dec 23, 2009 3:25:42 GMT
Antosha paused, pretending to think it over in his head. He smiled at Brynn, shaking his head slightly. "How about sealing it with a kiss?" he asked innocently, winking at Brynn. Teasing as much as he could, well as much as he dared. Not that he had to keep everything under lock and key, but most of it would have to stay that way. Including the bathroom door.
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Post by Brynn Ciel Devereux on Dec 23, 2009 21:43:55 GMT
Brynn gave a fake look of thought. "Hmm well I guess I can do that." He said giving Ant a smile leaning up on his tip toes, his arms around Anto's neck as he pressed his lips softly against Ant's. Brynn pulled back on to the ground with a smile feeling much better. "Is one enough to seal the deal?" He asked with a small grin.
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Post by Antosha Cobb on Dec 24, 2009 0:49:25 GMT
Antosha smiled, slipping his hands onto Brynn's waist. "Nah, I think two would be more appropriate." he laughed a little, leaning down slowly. Mere atoms apart from Brynn's lips he stopped, smiled, and moved back away. Teasing. "Just kidding!" he laughed again, feeling better then before.
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Post by Brynn Ciel Devereux on Dec 24, 2009 1:44:38 GMT
Brynn waited for a kiss probably looking stupid. "Hey!" He said giving a fake pout. "No fair." He said smiling feeling Ant's arm on his waist. Brynn let out a yawn. "I'm tired..." He said looking up at Ant. "Is it ok if I use you're bed tonight?" He said hoping Ant would oblige, if not I guess he was stuck with Luna.
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Post by Antosha Cobb on Dec 24, 2009 2:06:49 GMT
Antosha smiled, trying to be seductive, hoping it worked. "Would that be with or without me?" he asked, tilting his head carefully. His fingers were tapping lightly against Brynn's hips, with no real rhythm of course, but still taping away. He was quiet, working on being seductive rather then words, still hoping it would work. Towards what, he didn't know, but it was fun to try.
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Post by Brynn Ciel Devereux on Dec 24, 2009 3:21:09 GMT
Brynn smiled "Of course with you." He smiled in a teasing manner pulling himself closer to Anto's face his arms around Ant's neck. He felt tingly where Anto was tapping his fingers. "I'm guessing that's a yes then?" Brynn said with a small smile.
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Post by Antosha Cobb on Dec 24, 2009 3:30:28 GMT
"Mmm, that's a heck yeah." he smiled, glancing to him bed then back at Brynn. Antosha couldn't get them anywhere if Brynn clung to him, well he could, maybe. With another smile Antosha swung Brynn up into his arms gently, baring having to use effort in the action. A tiny laugh and then he sat down on the bed, Brynn still in his arms. "Ta da." he mumbled, pretending to be exhausted.
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Post by Brynn Ciel Devereux on Dec 24, 2009 3:37:16 GMT
He smiled but was soon swept off his feet quite literally. "Woah." Brynn hadn't been expecting that but he smiled giggling a bit before being sitting on the bed. "Hey I'm not that heavy." Brynn replied to his fake exhaustion. He smiled still in his arms. "You sweep me off my feet." He said quietly leaning in kissing Anto's cheek. "Kind of like a prince." Everything seemed to be a fairytale to Brynn, maybe that was weird but it was kind of true at the same time. After a long time he felt truly that Ant was like his own prince. Brynn grinned slightly. "You should wear some tights or something." He giggled at the mental image. "Then again I'm sure you'd look great without tights." He said more quietly this time his arms around Ant's neck.
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