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Post by Zane Heian Vasser on Feb 7, 2010 3:16:51 GMT
It was still strange to act like they'd been going out for months when in reality it was only a few days. He was wondering if this was just a fling. But he ignored the thought as he was put on the bed. He felt bad for Kurt having to sleep on the ground. "No one ever said you had to sleep down there." He said with a small smile tugging on his hand to join him in the bed.
Zane wondered what there was to do? Mostly kiss but well he didn't know. "Come one we can share a bed, I prefer a body over a cover any day." He said with a small playful smile.
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Post by Kurt Casper on Feb 7, 2010 3:28:18 GMT
Kurt smiled, laying down beside Zane. He planned to sneak out of bed in the middle of the night and sleep on the floor, afraid Zane would forget where he was and assume Kurt had hurt him. He looked at the boy, having not actually felt something for someone in his whole life. So he wondered if he was doing something wrong. He knew he didnt want to Zane to leave him, knew hed be really hurt if he did. But Zane being happy took presidence over what Kurt wanted anyday.
He caressed the boys cheek gently, his eyes meeting Zanes. "You know.. You dont have to stay if you dont want to.. You dont have to be with me if you dont want to. Theres nothing stopping you from leaving, you know that, Zane.." And as bad as it hurt him to say it, to give him permission to leave, he knew he wouldnt be able to truly love him -ever- if he didnt give him the option to leave.
"Im not forcing you into anything, Zane.. I never would.."
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Post by Zane Heian Vasser on Feb 7, 2010 4:12:44 GMT
Zane smile softly as Kurt got in beside him slowly caressing his cheek. He didn't understand if this was Kurt telling him to leave or really an option. Zane looked down. "I know we just met, and I don't know you to well..." He said quietly. "This is going fast and I'm not sure of even what this is...or how I feel." He mumbled.
"But I know I'm happy now, and I know I want to try this, to give it a chance." He said with a smile. "I know this isn't what I believe in but...but something about you just makes me want more." He said quietly looking into Kurt's eyes.
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Post by Kurt Casper on Feb 7, 2010 4:18:49 GMT
"Zane, look.." Kurt mumbled, running his hand through the boys hair. Zane made him want more, made him feel happy for once in his life. And he really didnt want to throw this away by rushing into things.
"We can take our time, okay? We dont even have to date.. We can just be friends, if thats what you want.." He stammered, biting his lip. 'Friends' was an unfamiliar territory for him. Just as love was. But he didnt want to take any chances at ruining what may be his one shot at being with someone.
"Its completely up to you, Zane.. Just know.. I-I do care for you. In more ways than one. And this is just as shocking to me as it is to you.. But you mean alot to me." He leaned over, kissing Zane on the forehead gently. "And scaring you off isnt worth the misery thats sure to follow.."
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Post by Zane Heian Vasser on Feb 7, 2010 4:26:43 GMT
Zane smiled being kissed on the forehead. "I don't mind dating, it's just, this is new to me." He said quietly. "Like...how do I make you happy? How am I supposed to be special too you?" He said quietly. "What am I supposed to talk about? How do I be a boyfriend? That is what’s confusing me the most." He said looking at him. "You probably think I'm stupid..." He said blushing a bit.
"You won't scare me off trust me." He said quietly. "Unless you were an arachnid." He said with a smile. "I just want you to be you around me, don't be worried mmkay? I won't run away." He said giving Kurt a gentle kiss.
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Post by Kurt Casper on Feb 7, 2010 4:56:49 GMT
Kurt kissed him back, as gently as he possibly could. He looked at him, admiring him for a moment, before speaking.
"Well, Zane.. To answer your burning questions: You make me happy just by being here. With me. ; Youre special to me already, so theres no need to try. ; Talking? Just talk about anything that pops into that pretty little head of yours." He leaned down to kiss Zanes neck gently, his lips brushing the boys skin before pulling back. "And how do you be a boyfriend?" He shrugged. "Just let it come to you, I guess.. Zane, you dont have to try to please me. Because you make me perfectly happy with you the way you are. You dont have to pretend you know what youre doing. Because youre pretty damn cute when youre just being you. And besides. I dont know what Im doing either. So just wing it and hope it works out.. Afterall, I wouldnt be here -we wouldnt be here, if he hadnt'a taken a chance, now would we?"
Kurt wrapped his arms around Zanes waist, pulling him closer. "I kind of like this.. Being your boyfriend.. I must be the luckiest guy in the world to have you.. Youre pretty amazing. You know that?" Kurt leaned down, kissing Zane gently. He closed his eyes, leaning closer as he felt himself melt into Zane, everything seeming completely perfect. He brought his hands around to Zanes stomach, then up to his chest as he balled his hands into fists around Zanes shirt, wishing he could just hold onto him forever.
He had never wanted to just be around someone so badly. He had never wanted someone physically, but was so afraid to touch them. He had never been so into someone, and so scared of them at the same time. He had never found someone so completely irresistable, so God-like. He had never found someone who could set his body on fire with a simple touch.
So was this love?
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