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Post by Shaun Garton on Mar 8, 2010 4:20:00 GMT
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 haun sat in her room, her head down. Everything around her seemed to be crumbling. And there was nothing she could do to stop it. Kissing that girl had changed her whole outlook on life. The only thing she could think about was Bexi, the only thing she wanted to see was Bexi. And she wanted Bexi to notice her, to want to see her again. She wanted Bexi to realize how badly Shaun needed her..
haun didnt know why she was acting this way. She had never felt anything for anyone before. But just the thought of Bexi made her stomach errupt in butterflies, made her sick and excited and anxious all at the same time. Shaun couldnt see why this girl had taken over her thoughts, her heart, her mind.. The girl -after all- couldnt feel anything. So why had Shaun fallen so hard for her?
" hats it. If I sit here any longer, Im going to go insane.." She told herself. She stood up, walking out of her room, her key tucked in her pocket. She walked to the main room, curling up in a chair. She watched as people came and went. They had things to do, people to see. Boys to kiss...
 nd all Shaun had was a girl who didnt want her back.
haun started drifting off, her knees pulled to her chest as she fell asleep in the chair.
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' love you, Shaun..' Bexi said, pulling Shaun into her arms. She looked down at Shaun, her eyes dancing with excitement.
' ou do?' Shaun asked, looking up helplessly at her. Her heart was racing, her palms were sweating, and her stomach had butterflies cramped inside it, driving her almost insane. She had wanted this so badly. And now that it was happening, she didnt know what to do.
' do..' Bexi mumbled, looking down at her, a smile playing on her lips. She kissed Shaun gently, her lips gentle and sweet. Shaun slipped her arms around Bexi loosly, knowing it couldnt last for much longer. Bexi would get too hot. But Bexi didnt seem to care. She pushed closer to Shaun, her tounge finding its way into her mouth. Shaun whimpered quietly, leaning into her. She wanted more, wanted it all.
' exi..' Shaun whispered, pulling away. 'Stop.. Youll get hurt.. You.. You might die, Bexi..'
' dont care. If I die, Ill die happy. Because Ill be in your arms.' Bexi told her, wrapping her arms around Shauns waist. She pulled Shaun close, kissing her again.
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haun stirred, but didnt wake. She pulled her knees closer, whimpering quietly in her sleep.
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word count :;: four-thirty-five. : D
tags :;: bexiiii :3
music :;: Lying Face Down - Saving Abel
notes :;: Teeheehee. I think its perty good. (: Took a while to type up. And I had nothing better to do, so I kept editing it. xD But yeah. I think its probably the best post Ive made so far.
credits :;: A ROCKET TO THE ELLE @ caution 2.0 steal and she will take her rocket and stuff it in your... mouth. Yes, your mouth. =D Do not remove any credit, including the image at the end. Lyrics belong to Escape the Fate. |
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Post by "Bexi" Leggert on Mar 8, 2010 14:40:39 GMT
Beeps for bathroom, beeps for food, beeps for water, beeps for sleep, beeps to wake up, beeps to check that your tongue was still in one piece, beeps to check your temperature, beeps to put on a jacket, beeps to take off a jacket....
Bexi hated her life, hated it all. It was like watching the world from a padded room, or feeling like you were constantly playing a video game - controlling someone else's body, talking to other people, feeling nothing. It was days like these when she hated it the most. Days when she longed to be a normal person, longed to be able to touch someone and feel it. The only pleasure she could get was from another person, and even then they would never trust the one-sided relationship.
She walked into the main room, irritated by herself, storming around. She had recieved more than a few injuries from Melville, all of which were part of her healing grieving process. When Bexi was upset, she didn't get sad she got angry, she got desperate to inflict pain and make her body in pain, even if she couldn't feel it.
Her arm was in a cast, but she was pretty sure it wasn't broken. Her limping brace was on her foot again, and a pattern of black bruises traced along her body. To her, it had been a productive fight.
She looked to the other side of the room, seeing Shaun sitting in the corner holding herself. She walked up to her slowly; it couldn't have been comfortable sleeping in the chair, and she felt like she should say something to her. She reached out her hand to wake her- BEEP BEEP BEEP
Bexi rolled her eyes as the loud alarm clock on her waist went off yet again, more than likely waking the girl. |
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Post by Shaun Garton on Mar 8, 2010 19:58:06 GMT
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Shaun jumped, pulling her knees closer. Of course, it had to have been Bexi who woke her.
"I-I have somewhere to be.." She mumbled, pulling herself up. She ran to her room, throwing it open and slamming it closed, leaning against the door as tears fell down her pale cheeks. Why did it have to be Bexi? Of all the people to wake her up, it had to be her, didnt it?
Shauns hands found her way to her hair. She tugged it, wanting to scream. It wasnt fair. She shouldnt be falling in love with this girl. She shouldnt. Bexi would never want her back. Never. And Shaun would just have to live with that.
Shaun pulled her knees close, sobbing harder. It just didnt seem fair.
Why..?
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word count :;: dunnu. dont care
tags :;: bexiiii :3
music :;: nothing
notes :;: its majorly suckish.
credits :;: A ROCKET TO THE ELLE @ caution 2.0 steal and she will take her rocket and stuff it in your... mouth. Yes, your mouth. =D Do not remove any credit, including the image at the end. Lyrics belong to Escape the Fate. |
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Post by "Bexi" Leggert on Mar 8, 2010 20:11:15 GMT
Bexi jumped back quickly as the girl rushed past her. She blinked a few times, watching her go in staggering amazement. What had Bexi done that was so wrong? Her eyes narrowed; of course it wasn't what she'd done, it was what her condition, it was the bubble that she was trapped inside.
She sighed, walking slowly forwards. Without even realising it, she was outside the girl's room. She wondered vaguely how she'd managed to auto-pilot her way there of all places, but she sat down against her door, not realising that she was doing the same on the other side.
She sighed, putting her head on the door, her eyes fading out. She turned to her bag, pulling it out a notepad and a pen, drawing and writing quickly.
'This is my life. What you feel now, with a door in between us, is what its always like for me. I sometimes wish it could be more. You made me wish I had more.' she wrote in big letters, drawing a little cartoonish picture of supergirl in the top corner, before she slipped it through under the door. |
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Post by Shaun Garton on Mar 8, 2010 20:21:38 GMT
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Shaun pulled the note open, and read it slowly. Why had Bexi followed her? Shaun pulled out her pretty purple pen [thats what she called it} and put the paper on her knee, scribbling in her large, blocky script.
'What is wrong with you, I dont care about. Doors were meant to be open, walked through.. If you cant conquer a door, what can you conquer? Exactly. Nothing. So why let a door stand between you and what you want to do? Go find the person you like, tell them you want them, and give them a kiss. Dont let your door stand in the way. Its not worth the pain.'
What she had said, was exactly what she wanted to do. But if you love someone, set them free. and thats what Shaun would do. Let Bexi be happy.
She slipped the note through the door, placing her pen beside her foot.
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word count :;: dunnu. dont care
tags :;: bexiiii :3
music :;: nothing
notes :;: its majorly suckish.
credits :;: A ROCKET TO THE ELLE @ caution 2.0 steal and she will take her rocket and stuff it in your... mouth. Yes, your mouth. =D Do not remove any credit, including the image at the end. Lyrics belong to Escape the Fate. |
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Post by "Bexi" Leggert on Mar 8, 2010 20:28:48 GMT
Bexi was startled as the piece of paper slid back through, wondering if it was a draft or something when she saw the purple writing. She picked it up slowly, reading every word with interest. She smiled to herself, picking her pen up again and scribbling quickly;
'This isn't relationships and love, this is my life, this is my illness. And its bad enough living with it myself. I don't want to hurt anyone else.'
She slipped it back under the door, putting the lid back on her pen throughfully. [/blockquote] |
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Post by Shaun Garton on Mar 8, 2010 20:34:55 GMT
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Shaun looked at it. Her color seemed lighter than Bexis. Bexi must be writing in black.
'If it means being hurt, you can kill me.. I dont care.. I wanna be with you..' She scribbled, then quickly scratched it out, not realizing her words were still visible. She couldnt see them, at least.
'Oh.' She wrote, then passed it back under the door, her hands shaking.
She doesnt want me back. I might as well give up. She thought, crawling into her bed as her sobs came harder, made her body shake.
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word count :;: dunnu. dont care
tags :;: bexiiii :3
music :;: nothing
notes :;: its majorly suckish.
credits :;: A ROCKET TO THE ELLE @ caution 2.0 steal and she will take her rocket and stuff it in your... mouth. Yes, your mouth. =D Do not remove any credit, including the image at the end. Lyrics belong to Escape the Fate.[/quote] |
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Post by "Bexi" Leggert on Mar 8, 2010 20:41:27 GMT
Bexi took a little longer this time, struggling to decipher the writing which she had tried to scribble out. Thoughtfully, she put the pen to the paper, hoping that the words would come, but she didn't really know how to say them.
She sighed, taking her pen off the paper and tapping it against it for a moment, thinking exactly of what she would say.
'The only pain I can ever feel is other people being in pain. Promise to keep happy and keep me from feeling pain?' she wrote, not sure if it was right but sliding it under the door before she could think about it. |
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Post by Shaun Garton on Mar 8, 2010 20:47:27 GMT
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Shaun didnt get up to see what Bexi wrote. She pulled the blanket over her head, crying harder. Nothing seemed fair anymore. Everyone around here was happy, content, in love. And all Shaun was was miserable, heartbroken and in love. She pulled her key out of her pocket, throwing it at the wall. She didnt need it anymore. She wouldnt be leaving the room anymore. She couldnt handle seeing Bexi. Couldnt handle seeing how happy she was without her.
"J-just go home.." Shaun said, barely audiable through her sobs. She pulled the blanket tighter around her, shivering from anger, from pain. She didnt wanna be here anymore. She wanted to go back to her Aunts farm where they hated her. Like Bexi.
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word count :;: dunnu. dont care
tags :;: bexiiii :3
music :;: nothing
notes :;: its majorly suckish.
credits :;: A ROCKET TO THE ELLE @ caution 2.0 steal and she will take her rocket and stuff it in your... mouth. Yes, your mouth. =D Do not remove any credit, including the image at the end. Lyrics belong to Escape the Fate.[/quote][/quote] |
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Post by "Bexi" Leggert on Mar 8, 2010 22:29:28 GMT
Bexi pulled herself up quickly, putting her hand against the door, debating whether she should enter or not. For someone in a pain-free world, she seemed to cause it a lot, she realised, just about to reach for the door handle when she closed her eyes tightly.
BEEP BEEP BEEP
Bexi dropped her hand from the door handle, turning back to the alarm - this one she couldn't ignore, couldn't stay in the hallway for. She closed her eyes in irritance as she turned and walked away from the corridor. "You can't stay in there forever." she called through the door, before turning away. [/font] |
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Post by Shaun Garton on Mar 8, 2010 22:35:49 GMT
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Bexi was right. Shaun couldnt stay in there forever. Was she gone? Did she leave? Shaun didnt want her to leave. Shaun stood up, walking to the door. And there Bexi still was. Shaun looked at her with tear filled eyes. Then almost against her will, she wrapped her arms around Bexis neck, pressing her lips to the girls. Tears continued to fall down her cheeks, dripping down onto her shirt.
"B-Bexi..?" Shaun asked, looking up at the girl in her black-and-white world as tears fell down her pale cheeks. She grabbed Bexis hands, holding them tightly as her own shook.
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word count :;: dunnu. dont care
tags :;: bexiiii :3
music :;: nothing
notes :;: its majorly suckish.
credits :;: A ROCKET TO THE ELLE @ caution 2.0 steal and she will take her rocket and stuff it in your... mouth. Yes, your mouth. =D Do not remove any credit, including the image at the end. Lyrics belong to Escape the Fate. |
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Post by "Bexi" Leggert on Mar 13, 2010 2:54:17 GMT
Bexi looked down at Shaun - she was particularly tall, especially for a girl, so it was hard to do anything but look down at other people. She smiled a little, but took Shaun's hands in hers quickly. "Shaun, sweetie..." she said quickly, trying not to sound disinterested or patronising, but her words were fast. She picked up her alarm clock, pointing to it meanfully, "This is real sweet and all but I kinda can't avoid this one..." she said with a sigh.
She looked down, dropping Shaun's hands. It seemed fitting that the alarm would tear them apart from the meaningful moment, just as it would probably tear them from everything meaningful that would happen, and it was important that Shaun realised that. "Sorry, babs. I'll talk to you soon..." she said, wanting to do more but knowing that she didn't have the time.
Quickly, she leant forwards and pressed her lips against Shaun's cheek, not realising that what was meant to be a soft kiss was actually turned into something rough and forceful from not knowing when to pull back. She smiled at her, wanting to do more but having to turn around instantly, without even time to hear Shaun's reaction as she ran down the corridor.
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Post by Shaun Garton on Mar 13, 2010 3:03:55 GMT
Shaun watched her go, her hand pressed to her cheek. She was sure it would leave a mark, or it would be sore at the very least..
She choked back tears, wishing she didnt have to leave.
Something about the kiss hurt Shaun more than Bexi having to leave. So many people had kissed her cheek then left, never to be seen again. And most of the time, it ended in a whispered 'good-bye.' Shaun was sure Bexi wasnt coming back. Just like everyone else.
"Good-bye, Bexi.." She whispered, tears falling down her cheeks as she walked back into her dorm, closing the door quietly before breaking down into sobs, sliding slowly down the door until she was hugging her knees.
"Goodbye.."
-Fin?-
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